Week 22

Well, the past few weeks have been... a growing experience.

I was thinking and praying about leaving this job due primarily to the isolation that I have been experiencing. As I was praying I felt like God wanted me to stay so that I could see Him make this situation very, very good and thereby increase my faith/hope/trust in Christ. In counseling last week, my counselor felt as though God was saying that this time is an opportunity to learn to rest and let God be the one to comfort me. That is, I think, what God has this time set apart for in my life. Learning to be alone with God in literal isolation so that I can be alone with God in the chaos of "unisolated" life. This job is hard because we don't see the immediate fruit of our labors very much. I have to trust that me loving my girls DOES matter and continue on when it seems pointless at times. That is a verrrrrry good lesson to begin learning.

I have been praying that I will value Christian maturity more than I value comfort. I did NOT want to pray that AT ALL because I like comfort... way too much...but I knew that is exactly what I needed to want so I prayed for God to change my perspective (the concept of Christian maturity/comfort was discussed in a sermon I heard last week).

I was reading an article on a blog called The Resurgence, and it was discussing prayer and one thing the author said to meditate on/pray about is that following would be true: "Your (God's) presence and approval are all I need for everlasting joy". AWESOME, right?! I have BOTH because of Jesus. So, I have been praying about that too.

In counseling this week, my counselor brought up some stuff that I will be praying about. This "stuff" has to do with guys/marriage and fear/terror regarding both and why that fear/terror exists in the first place... so, yeah. If you could pray about that too, that'd be great.

I have been praying about what God has for me after this--NOT dwelling on it, well.. actually sometimes I have been dwelling on it, then I have to repent... mhmmm yep. I really would like to work in Residence Life at a (Christian) College/University again. We'll see what Jesus has.